.... and I'm crazy nervous.
Well I'm going as long as tomorrow's emergency dentist appointment doesn't leave me in too much pain....
A friend is running the event (FetLife Link) and I've been meaning to go for months...
And I'm scared...
Maybe it's nerve...
Maybe it's just out right fear....
In case you didn't know, dear reader.... I'm not skinny.
I'm obese... morbidly so according to some calculations....
I'm not supposed to do rope...
Well.... that's what's in my head.
I'm not saying it's real or not. I'm just saying that it feels like fact in my head.
It feels like even more than fact.. it feels like TRUTH in my brain.... that I'm just setting myself up to be laughed at...
Do you watch Game of Thrones? In last night's episode Brienne of Tarth recalls a painful experience where she was laughed at... and was saved by the kindness of one person.
It feels like I'm just opening myself up to ridicule....
But... I'm gonna go.... and suck it in... and maybe it won't be so bad.....
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