8/13/07

So today I masturbated (as is my fashion) to an erotic story about a woman who was kidnapped and gang banged by several men. It got me hot reading about how she came to really enjoy being used...I thinks are moving to fast... I think I'm agreeing to things not 'cause I really want to do them or think that it's the right time for things to happen, but because I can't say no. I need to learn to say no. It's hard but I need to. Is it ok to back things off a bit?

8/12/07

I woke up this morning and re-read the conversation, following especially the parts where you give me directions. I only played with my pussy lips until I got to the end like you had asked. When it was time to touch my clit, I followed your directions and stroked it thinking of you touching it, and then waited 5 seconds before continuing. I rubbed in kind of the same manor as last night (it's how I cum.... you might say I'm in a rut), rubbing the upper side with my left hand. I was so close when my arm started to get tired but instead of switching hands I needed to cum really badly so I just ignored it and kept rubbing and rubbing the base of my clit with my left hand. There was a big gasp of air right before I cameI'm about to go suck on my panties now. I've never done it before so I'm a little worried that I won't be able to compel myself to do it to completion, but I will let you know when I'm done how it went. After that I will shower and touch my pussy like you directed last night.Shelly